vonkoh
18th february 1986
vonkoh@hotmail.com
singaporean
WORK BEST WITH MOZILLA FIREFOX.
OTHERS
pots of gold.
diamonds.
pradas.
coachs.
taroting.
jade bracelet.
jade chinese seal.
iphone.
sony ericsson g900.
pretty were the distortions.
importance were the
weals and woes.
fuck the nutcases.
the key to euphorias.
now, the many who are no
longer playing by the rules.
love affair of a lifetime.
Addictive Shopping
Las.Costuras*
von's personal tarots
abbey
abbey's zorpia
aiwei
charmaine chan
chin pei
christina hoh
christina won
christina won's zorpia
daphne
edmund
edwin
elisa
esther's zorpia
eugene
geraldine
gracina
han tiong
hui juan
hui jun
jen's zorpia
jenny
jessica
kelly
krystel
lionel
liping
lishan
mastura
michelle
natalie
nicky
shaohong
stuart
teresa
xinping
yvonne-smss junior
yvonne-polymate
blogger
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most of the time in office, either the district or agency managers
will definitely be saying;
'tough times dont last, only tough people do.'
yea, its fucking tough! )):
i so dont like roadshows la. i prefer to do canvassing but not,
roadshows. dont ask me why because i dont have an answer for it.
this afternoon i had my roadshow at raffles city, and guess what.
somebody had obnoxiously stolen one of the managers' laptop! and to
my surprise, none of us realised it!
im thinking of adopting a child but of course, i cant afford to adopt
one and take care of him/her right beside me. you know those that
you pay $50 bucks per month or per year, you can already help
them with their stationery, clothing and prolly daily lives. at the same
time, i feel that i needa do more good deeds.
(i wanted to put up the link here, but you guys know, von have got
really poor memory. shall check it out from my colleague real soon
and then i'll update again.)
was reading this blog regarding african child adoption, go read up on
them and you guys will prolly share the same sentiments as me.
and then i had this thought of having each $10 spent at Las.Costuras,
i will have $1 donated to this organisation too.
not some marketing gimick la, but, shall discuss with teresa when times
come.
anyway, previously i had this entry regarding that deal that made
me 3.5 happy? its gone.
its a waste though, sorry teresa. we could have gotten 2k plus each.
times are bad, but thank god i do have good clients who are really
supportive which makes me really happy. (:
not sure if its a good or bad thing.
these few weeks my main picture on this
current was gone, and only then i just
realised that ourworld.cs.com have shut
down.
i previously had lots of pictures stored
in there. even photos posted for previous
blog that i was so called supposed to delete,
were all gone too.
guess sooner or later i will seriously shut
down this blog and the previous one as well,
which would also mean, i will have to delete
my 700 odd entries ever since i was 17 years old.
i will break away.
great, i should have admitted that i wasnt myself
for a real long time.
not sure where to begin, not even sure when was
that end for that new beginning.
had a really good time tonight, it was real madness
with the crazy people. the very final song that brought
up everybody, 'i hate myself for loving you'.
but i just had to face the fact that i always hit the rocks
that im always avoiding. yea, i just have to encounter
situations i hated. i always say im 'over and done with'.
yet, it kept coming back, time and time again.
law of attraction, whatever thoughts that i had in the
past will shape whatever i am facing today, the situations
im in. i prolly have been living in denial, and thats why its
back not once, nor twice, but the queue goes longer than that.
its NOTHING, absolutely nothing.
i had been a real fool. not knowing where that full stop had
belonged to along that time line.
time flies, yet im stuck, stucked on the reverse.
why did i even allow myself to get lost?
i have enough. im tired.
i dont know where to begin.
i dont know where to stop.
i dont know how things should go; so that it will stop
haunting me.
should i just give up whatever ive built, or should i continue
to ignore and pretend that nothing had ever been done before.
i had fought, im still fighting.
i need genuine guidance.
i need my signboards and directions.
i, am, no longer, i.
(i wish i could get really really drunk, remembering nothing at all.)
i was happy for that few minutes for seeing my
number for today's 4D lottery results;
but, it wasnt the exact number la! if only it is.
didnt plan to buy at all, its like my first time
queuing for lottery!?
ginny forced me to buy for her because she knows
there's one singapore pool betting centre near my
workplace. so she had five numbers.
and so i thought, since im here. just buy the one
i usually buy.
and so i act smart, "i want to '打'." who knows, $1 big
cost me 24 bucks for 24 permutations.
but nevermind, won 6 bucks.
good things coming on my way! ((:
after typing the title, and of course, it was followed
by one big sigh.
so many things to do, yet so little time. or rather i
cant fully utilise my time.
my paperwork are all over the place and until now im
yet able to clear them.
so lazy to do emails,
so lazy to do update blog,
(be it personal or blogshop, but want money, must
spend the time.)
so lazy to do callings,
so lazy to go appointments,
so lazy to work,
so lazy to do EVERYTHING!
procrastinate at any or everything that come along.
and im so sick of answering questions too, hate it as
though im becoming a FAQ.
is there something wrong with von?
because it seems like most people remember me as veron
these days??? ):
i feel as though im 'entertaining' towards a task, a conversation,
a question, a laughter, a concern.
i need time of my own.
okay, i dont know why the title. but!
von is 3.5/4 happy mood than usual days.
BECAUSE, las.costuras has a good deal that had me
giggling non-stop over the phone when i called my
eldest sister and teresa! ((((:
transaction havent complete, once completed.
von will be 5/4 with lala-happiness.
this is a super phrase.
"不是不报，只是时侯未到。"
if not, there's another one my colleague always use.
"人在做，天在看。"
i know its chi-naish. still, its useful to slap faces.
need i say more? an irreplaceable pop icon. from glamourous to pits, and coming
back for more than who she is.
crystal kept telling me, "it does pay to be kind".
and that i should stop being evil,because she might
prolly be the only one friend who would be left
sitting beside me on the rocking chair till i kick
the bucket. how should i not love this bitch?
the thoughts aint very organised;
i still miss those days that im over and done with.
i do miss that voice and familiarity.
im yearning for more fun.
i feel like quitting.
fucken trashed.
i wanna give tight slaps!
i love ignobliss.
just yesterday morning at 8:18 a.m., i received this
sms from ****7222, "Gd mrng r u yvonne?".
since i slept in till noon, replied with "you are?" and
this person didnt respond. so i didnt really bother
and thought prolly could be one of my colleagues.
and at 7.21 a.m., this same number actually called me.
#7222: "hello, are you yvonne?"
me: "ya, who are you?"
#7222: "im samuel here."
me: "which samuel? the one from my workplace?"
#7222: "no, you chat with me online."
me: "i dont think i made friend with anyone online."
#7222: "maybe you forgot. you chat with me remember?"
(kept asking me i remember?!)
me: "i said i dont think so." (end call)
so now, to whoever who gave my number to strangers. if you
dislike me, come tell me straight to my face and i would gladly
appreciate that. if not, im also fine with you spreading to the
whole world how much you detest me darling.
i thought i would never be able to find this song.
the first hokkien song i learnt and sang with my
father everywhere we go when i was below 6 years old!
父子情深;
i used to sing this very well. but now, i don't think im able to
pronounce as well as before!
(mummy say 'meh chou wei li xiang kiang'. if anybody understand
that. ((: )
that eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,
that i missed.
okay, i prolly had a little too much earlier but definitely
still sober enough to type a couple of words here so that
my blog wouldnt be so dead till i post some outdated
pictures on the blog!
im happy that i so almost hit my target before end month.
like $xx,000. BUT! this amount just have to be $(xx-1),999.01.
bloody hell short of that 99 cents?
anyway, nightclubs can be darn fun too. no, we are in a room
with no girls la. just that the guy just came over but this 'ah-tiong'
seems to follow him around. seems like ever since i quit pub, i
still enjoy drinking, but alcohol tolerance have dropped till pit deep,
my eyes darn heavy now. play 5-10 lose. play dices lose. play scissors
paper stone, (for just once per drink), also LOSE! oh, nightclubs the
best because they got darn good service la.
before that was lunar. to be honest, that was my first time being
at lunar. i thought lunar gonna be a little 'class' due to its traditional
style. but neinei, seems like its just another 'trying-to-be thai club'.
the girls (though dancing freestyle with no co-ordination, at all) were
dancing on podium, thats all. this guy darn idiot, 'the first 3 can stay,
the rest can leave.'
okay, the entry is darn disorganised because im bloody lack of sleep.
the whole week was mad rush. yesterday night i was at bala, was so
afraid that i might see people from my district. especially my big boss
whos a privileged member of bala? but i realised i wouldnt see him
there because, this morning got MEETING! ((: but saw this private
banker guy over there who quit after he introduced himself to us all
at this awards night. (so as usual, i gotta pretend i dont recognise
anything or anybody. okay, im darn unsociable.)
girls should look for boyfriends who save, so you can spend. go out
with a handphone will do that kind. dont look for a miser. but never
look for boyfriends who frequent nightclubs not for the purpose of work!
okay, i know i havent been blogging emo post. but life
somehow have been tough.
why the title of somehow, i miss my father in heaven.
life back then, being one staunch teenager, everything was,
fucking smooth sailing. even if im putting christianity aside,
life was so much more purer than anything for that period
of time.
when and why did i choose things that i dont even know
what was i even doing.
ive been taking life really easy. and far too much distractions,
trying to focus, lose it, trying to focus, lose it again. the cycle
kept repeating far too many times.
im feeling upset because time will always make people grow
old. and how things change over time. they say time is the
best medicine. but we are just using time to buy a chance.
okay, im drifting away.
i dont have a wide social circle of friends, or have i lost that
connection with most people that i dont know much about
anything anymore. or are we just too involved with our own
lives, and we neglect the people around us.
the reason why im like this is because im so involved with just
myself and ive forgotten about my parents. daddy's driving
cab, and i hardly see him these days. i miss my father. im
worried about his health now, moreover he's always on the
road.
and even though i always say my mother tougher than anyone
of us, shes able to carry heavy things that sometimes,
even daddy cant carry. but all of us aged, and mummy is older
than daddy. plus all the housechores, she prolly cant handle as
well as before. ive taken things so darn granted. mummy always
complain about things, just because i feel that its insignificant, i pay
no attention. and as bitch as i am, i make a joke about how she
always get jealous over things such as the dogs or even envy her
sisters because now i feel that perhaps, the cousins that i dislike
really treat their mothers better than i do.
i hate that 生老病死. im taught with explaining to people about
insurance using that 4 characters. i wanna care for people for
helping them to get the plans thats needed for them, yet im always
afraid of one fine day, someone might just give me a call asking for
claims.
i must admit im pretty useless now. they might say im heartless
or i just dont care. but i must admit, i dont have the guts to care
anymore, neither do i have the courage to commit to anything now.
some of them say they wished they could be like me, but since im
feeling all so emo now, im saying this, 'no, you wouldnt wish to be
as useless as me!.'
since i havent blogged for half a month, i dont know when will be
the next time i can find time for another entry, (though i have half-
blogged entries of my trip to southern ridges and the zoo). but,
family and career shall be my main focus. i must learn to grasp
the vital focal. i shall work hard for daddymummy!
okay, been busy with doing up Las.Costuras. just in case
you guys didnt know, it meant The Couture in Spanish.
because the other time i was at union square and the lady
whos singing speaks spanish. so i thought it was quite
interesting to translate it to spanish. anyway, i forgot how
it should be pronounced.
still waiting for reynold to send me the photos taken at
southern ridges, we took tons. moreover i still needa sort
out photos from teresa's and my photos. (:
bi-monthly walk is good. i feel so much healthier.
and thank god i didnt end up limping at work yet im
running around with heels happily again.
oh well, i shall just spend another hour sorting out some
designs and do some posting on Las.Costuras before i
sleep. meeting again tomorrow, sian! gonna end up
sleeping inside but big boss always watching out for
people like us.
our newly established blogshop, Las.Costuras. do check it out. (:
i must give teresa the credits no matter what because
she helped me translate taiwan chinese to english. ((:
as im trying to get fake lashes from taiwan and most
prolly in bulk. but i dont know how to read la. hope im
able to settle it soon then i will post the items up on
abbey's shopping blog. (((:
thank god i have someone who has A2. now i finally
understand why mister low said hes already very
happy when i got B3! ):
there was this time i smsed my colleague because it
was his birthday; the msg was:
"eh sir. happy birthday! 祝你福如冻海, 寿比南山,
心想事成, 万事容易."
wanted to fill the whole msg with full of cheng yu, but
i only managed to type these four.
him: "thanks. but chinese so lousy."
me: "i chao chao also B3 leh."
him: "i anyhow also A1 leh."
(idiot.)
been worrying about kikki; shes about 10 years old plus.
my baby havent been feeling very good, but overall shes
a real happy dog.
just in case some of you dont know her condition;
right now, we have to put two types of eye drops for her
twice everyday, and its for life due to her glaucoma.
and glaucoma is very common for especially for breeds
like yorkshire. as kikki has half of the blood kind of yorkshire,
unfortunately she has such problems. glaucoma is also common
with us human.
in layman terms, glaucoma is when the len of the eye fall off its
fixed position. causing abnormally high pressure in the eye - it
will cause damage to the optic nerve and it might, cause vision
loss.
however, another problem is her hernia. a hernia is an out-pouching
of the abdominal contents through a weak spot in the body wall.
many dogs are born with umbilical hernias, where there is a bulging
out at the site of the unbilical cord. (so that bloody fucker - her
previous owner before she was found - should be cursed with something
alike hernia!) at times kikki will suffer from headaches, pains or even
vomits just because of discomfort due to hernia!
she needa go for operation, and this decision lies with me because im
the one who insist to adopt her! eileen and ginny are also afraid that
we are risking her life to put her through the operation. also because
of her age, she might not be able to take anesthesia.
meet the first love of my life.
her pair of sparkling eyes simply melts anybody.
okay, the last picture she was angry because ive been taking
far too many pictures of her and shes getting irritated.
bobo always irritate kikki.
one thing i must be honest, i like her too but, definitely cant be
compared with kikki.
for the past few weeks, a cup of hot milk tea works
better than anything else that helps me to snuggle
under my quilt darn soundly. (and so i thought i could
say goodbye to insomnia.)
yet for these few days, im getting more awake in
the nights!
and what i did tonight;
(instead of spending time playing games such as
wahjong or bridge),
i decided to read up on my Illustrated Series of
Microsoft Access. ((:
or bi la. last time didnt study hard in poly or make full
use of those time spent during lessons. the impression
i have of this software is like 'its so useful and make things
real convenient', yet im not familiar with the features!
since im being kept awake, use the time to do more read
ups.
okay, i know its kinda weird to be updating such
an emo post after entries of 'oh kinda happening'.
but, just feel like slapping myself for whatsoever
reason.
maybe its near the time of the month of feeling
down and all. BUT all of a sudden, that tinge of
hatred, towards myself.
seems to have lost myself somewhere. cant seems to
cut open that enigma. or am i just feeling nostalgic.
my heart's crippled by the vein,
that i keep on closing.
and its draining all of me,
they find it hard to believe,
i'll be wearing these scars,
for everyone to see.
im feeling so not okay that i feel like quitting my
job, leave singapore, go overseas and study.
circumvention is all i need.