vonkoh
18th february 1986
vonkoh@hotmail.com
singaporean
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i guess im gonna stop blogging,or maybe for the time being.
bye blogspot.
okay,i know its kinda evil to even blog about it. and im
not even sure if any of my colleagues even bother to read
this madwomans blog.
anyway,a couple of weeks ago that shortfatass have been
doing his silent stunts and jiahui just doesnt understand
my frustrations. i will not do anything unless someone pisses
me off,thats obvious. but i cant be too oblivious because i
still gotta spare a thought for some idiots pride and ego.
my facebook status was "my god will handle each of you,
shortfatasses." (i didnt mean it as a curse or whatsoever.)
i had that on facebook just to make a silent-make-known.
then who knows,just two days ago i heard that one of them
have gotten into an accident and now being hospitalised. okay,
at first i was like,"huh,is he okay?", "was it very bad?" that kind.
it wasnt fake lor.
and just yesterday,when i was on my facebook and saw the status.
i told jiahui (guilty to be in some gloating tone),"now do you even
believe in retributions?"
BECAUSE;
I DO.
ginny and i were at the clinic this evening because she
feels that shes falling ill soon. by the way,that woman just
came back from hongkong with steven.
all of us are on the front line,cant afford to fall ill that kind.
so all these while ive been contemplating if i should just take
the jab. (okay la,i may be notorious,but come on,quarantine?
no way!)
me: "should i just take the jab ah? but i scare pain leh."
gin: "do you know its just a normal flu jab. not against H1N1,
but it will boost your immune system lor. *SNIFFS."
me: "darn,then whats the point of taking the jab. you have
just proved it wrong lor!"
got home and steven came back not long after.
steven: "eh,i think im falling sick."
gin: "me too. i just went to the doctor."
ive been flooding myself with all the liang tehs,barleys and
chrysanthemum teas lor.
im healthy im healthy im healthy. (:
i dont know why,but im kinda looking forward to saturday! ((:
S T R E S S E D!
)):
sometimes.
many a times i tried to move on without stressing myself
out with something called the 'past'. anyway,whatever you
do in the past,will never leave you. i tried to live with it,
really,but its haunting me real bad. either that,or im not
taking it easily.
i hate it back then.
i hate it right now.
i wanna go to a faraway place,to start it all over again.
i was that 'hey,we all live once,live it worthily!'
howevers.
a part of me thats bearing some hatred,thats leading
me to no where. everything im doing is consistently
going wrong.
im not quite sure how to let it go,because its haunting
me almost everywhere i go.
if i hadnt met you ever,i prolly wouldnt be leading the
kind of life im having now. i shouldnt be the way i am.
hope this month be a good month. because im happy with
some numbers shown,as for now since its only the second
week.
work is horrendously busy that im beginning to feel lethargic.
the fire is going gone,i need to feel the frustrations again to
get me running.
tp on childrens day,no time to learn driving these days.
apart from chionging for production and running around like
a mad woman,my course will start very soon in july.
sales targets,driving test prep and course cum exam. ):
ive got really bad time management and needa learn to strike
a balance somewhere. getting no life! )):
its strange how i sail through the life journey all these years.
i miss my old self.
life was very much simpler.
lesser complications.
i dont have to care.
life started to change since 17.
ive been struggling with it since then.
getting used to my first job.
girlfriends all said i can never last for more than 3 days,
yet i worked for that darn cafe for 3 years.
those were the days that drained the hell out of me. i can never
worked like before,and be carefree at the same time.
having to make new friends,widening social circle.
i was that just that few will do,i dont need more.
im okay with just myself and this group will do.
not sure when and why did i start expanding that pathetic
circle and get to know that whole lot of people in that friends
list of mine. then again,i still think i dont have much friends.
i believe i have more enemies than friends.
never knew there will be the day that i will get hurt because
of another person. never knew i had to learn to love and care
for people around me. still,through those,ive learnt that having
another to leave our lives,doesnt really have to hurt anymore.
i wish i can live life the way i did when i was an adolescent.
everything have changed so much that i cant catch up.
found this collage i did a couple of years ago. each time i think
about the past,i feel even worse inside because its just a syndrome
that im growing very much older. ):
the things that i still harp on,just proves that ive never learnt to,let go.
I NEED TO MOVE IT MOVE IT.
perhaps because of kikki,im getting really stressed up
too. gotta dedicate most of my time to her when shes
discharged from hospital yet,my appointments and work
is seriously screwed. so bad that i fucked almost anybody
and everybody i talked to or even phonecalls that come.
some customers have been pretty irritating,i almost fucked
them too. but i chose not to pick up their calls and hopefully
they will contact jiahui instead of me. big mistake. and he
have been really poor thing too,because of me going crazy
and all,hes taking my shit and trying to reason out with me
when im throwing my temper like nobody's business.
until now i still feel like whacking people up and its pretty
strong. hur,guess im getting into a fight really soon.
these couple of days were prolly another period thats tough to get by.
(before you get on,its all about kikki for the past one week and its a
really long post.)
kikki just had her hernia operation last wednesday. first
two days she seemed okay because of the painkillers that
helps to relieve her pain,and she was sleeping most of the
time. but when it come to the third day,it was more
worrying because she still refuse to eat and drink. we have
got no choice but to feed her with gulcose and she got better
after that.
however,when it was about 3 o clock in the morning,she was
breathing really hard and i was afraid that her heart is working
even harder than usual when she already have a heart problem.
brought her to mount pleasant hospital,but that fucking dr. heng,
(not the grace heng that people usually recommend by the way)
was so fucking rough with kikki. kikki just had her operation and
that fucker simply just lift her leg and operated part and shows no
compassion at all.
me: "eh,not so rough." (i swear in the name of jesus that i wasnt
even rude and ginny can even be my witness!)
fucker: (immediately let go of kikki's leg with,a stern and strong
tone telling me,) "Control Yourself! You want me to take a look
at her?!"
me: (stared straight into her eyes with my god darn fucking look
since i have got no choice because shes the only vet around.)
"fine,go ahead!"
small ailments perhaps mount pleasant can handle,operations all
that,look for specialists of dogs' world's mount elizabeth.
kikki have done x rays at mount pleasant clinic but guess what,
they didnt tell us what the specialist told us (since that fucker
was so uncompassionate and rough towards kikki,theres no point
to go to her anymore.)
other than the other three problems i mentioned before. kikki have
got arthritis,and she have this problem for a long time already! she
had done x-rays for at least three times at mount pleasant. dont tell
me she was so kind not to mention to us because shes afraid that that
might worry us more with so many of kikki's health problems. as a
professional,at least fulfill her fucking due duties. not only that,because
of her heart problem,which leads to kidney problem too. so she will have
to be on heart and kidney diet.
by the way,she not only did her hernia operation,and sterilisation. so
her recovery will definitely be slower. but ginny and i have been really
worried about kikki,we havent had enough rest and it have been
affecting our work schedules too ever since then until the day we
admitted her to the dogs' hospital. now we have learnt our lessons,
wanna go mount pleasant or animal recovery centre,do think
twice. all i can say they work more like a business. and the bloody
nurses from mount pleasant,there was this time i need that fucker
to call me back regarding kikki's medication. according to them,that
nurse said she did call me call but couldnt get through. i received my
family's call,friends',colleagues' or even clients',why not hers huh?
all i can do now is seriously to hope for the best for my baby and that
she will recover fast. because whether or not she go for the operation,
the result would almost be the same. i havent felt the heart ache for a
really long time already. and it have been really straining on us mentally
and even physically. ginny kept blaming herself that she shouldnt have
put kikki through these. but we all agreed unamimously on this because
eventually,with the hernia continue to grow bigger,kikki will suffer even
more and it will be even more horrible.
and seriously pray that that fucker did do a good job with her operation
as right now,kikki have got inflammation on her operated part. but thank
god with the specialist,the swell is not so bad now.
NOW! I NEEDA HIT AND BURN EFFIGIES OF TWO MOTHER FUCKERS!
the one from animal recovery centre and another from mount pleasant.
i swear im gonna make sure my colleague bring me to one!
am hating the fact that i have to be even stronger than before. yes,i admit i
have quite a harsh personality. but when it comes to my dogs and family,i
cant handle. but eileen have too much water in her glands and ginny gets lost
when she panick,my brain was working really hard for directions and decisions.
i was just thinking to myself a couple of days ago,(i understand kikki is really
old and that she will leave us sooner or later,though its just a matter of time)
STILL,if anything were to happen to her. the first person i make sure i vent
all my anger on will be that fucking short fat ass! my family and kikki have
already taken up most of the space on my mind,continue with all your stunts
and keep playing mind games with me,i will make sure both you and i wont
have a good time! perhaps challenging that short fat ass will take my mind off.
no matter how desperate i am for a hair cut,
i will only go to candys salon!
the day before yesterday i just made an additional
stupid mistake in my life. which is,to have an hair
cut just at the salon nearest to me because i have
got no time to go down raffles place.
and so i dropped by jean yip,the one thats just next
to my office. trust me,that look i have on my face
was that 'what-the-fuck!'.
anyway,candy was nice enough to inform me that
people cancelled their slot and that i could come down.
for the past two days,i so wanna lock myself up at home
but i gotta work.
good news is,ive got it fixed! (((:
gotta thank teresa for such a good recommendation.
i have really really sweet colleagues.
(apart from the ones who have been tugging the tail
of this madwoman whose blog you guys are reading.)
because your friend here have been caught with flu
and fever for last week and today back in office with
this 'speak-to-me-not-face'.
while i was waiting for the lift,someone from behind
was like 'eh,here la! hurry up.'
and so i staggered to the lift and said nothing.
(there were four of us inside.)
#1: "eh,why you look so sian?"
me: "nothing."
#1: "talk leh."
me: "im sick la! no voice."
[#1, #2 and #3 IMMEDIATELY STEPPED BACK AND
PASTE THEMSELVES AGAINST THE ANOTHER SIDE
OF THE LIFT.]
WAH PIANG!
at that instant i so feel like using my laptop to whack them. ):
is there any way to starve oneself successfully without
feeling hungry at all?
havent been able to diet properly ever since i was 20!
its been 3 years. aiyo. no time for exercises as well. )):
i wanna learn to believe and trust again.
my colleagues saw me and asked,
"how many nights have you not slept?"
at the back of my mind im like darn,i must have looked
really haggard la!
cant take it anymore,look at the time now?!
for the whole week,i only managed to sleep around 2-6am!
anyway,this morning went to southern ridges again for a
short walk (prolly about two hours?) to get to know the place
because our unit gotta plan for the next workout day. the
crazy guys thought of relay and other exercises. i guess they
are pretty excited to torture the noisy 'aunties' just like how
they tortured the armyboys. (: thank god im spared that day.
its another day, and its one of the dearests happyday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TO OUR BELOVED GLAMOUR CHICKEN. ((:
or have that brain of yours gone rusty because you have
been thinking too much over the kachings?
speak using thy brain,not thy ass.
am okay with teasings and jokes,but not when idiots trying
to be funny using sensitive issues. its issues that could lead
to further conflicts you brainull.
waiting for me to make things ugly or what?
sfa is lucky because my gender is female,sfa is also
unlucky because of that!
these couple of days have been pretty horrid. time have
been quite disturbing as well as all the issues that tormenting
my mind.
there was this time that this friend of mine mentioned something
thats new to me. "you have that businesswoman aura thats quite
intimidating for guys around our age." so,lets just catch the key
word,intimidating huh? anyway i thought that was quite nonsense
or prolly he had nothing else to say.
i dont really bother about the conceptions others have of me. still,
one point to bring across,no pushover as well. especially if you are
talking about the von today. i can give in,nonetheless that depends
very well on how much you have not offended me. rather,how nice
have you treated me over time. i know this is not the way to go
around getting things done. still,im waiting for changes,waiting for
the way im able to be a better person.
seems to be missing out quite a bit. is it because ive lost the ability
to treat people with sincerity? or have i blend well with this world
of pragmatism so as to be able to survive in todays society?
that dominating brain have definitely taken me on a conflicting
emotional rides. i hate to drain my mind to know whats gotta be
done for countering.
whatever that sfa means!
i havent read the newspapers for such a long time that
i feel that im becoming as noob as that big-noob whom
ive been working with.
im happy to have worked hard but i hate looking at that
stack of papers that i gotta settle which is going to take
away my precious time. ):
i need drinking sessions very soon.
i need to meet my friends really soon as well.
i havent seen the girlfriends for almost two months.
i havent met my polymates for almost a month.
aiyo,getting back to friendless days? darn.
just one month and its ____building month.
just two weeks and its killing me softly. boo!
give way,or no way.
maybe as i grow older,i have learnt of many
ways to make sure i dont get hurt anymore.
emotionally,and definitely,physically.
i feel screwed at times to be the way i am. yet again,
many times im almost left with no choice either,i think?
sometimes i wonder how did problems arise?
i know im very stubborn.
teach me leveraging.
because i hate this world.
very bad mental block now.
i need a break but no time. ):
seriously not thinking straight now.
and thinking too much.
not organised at all,incoherency.
todo basket just so tough to empty.
needa get it all right.
1/2daddy not around for my fix.
eightEIGHTeight more days for bugsfix.
tahantahan,no outburst.
hur,i wanna run.
because its some f-ing mistake.
a little too not over you.
boston.
cry.
dont wanna try no more.
every breath you take.
fill me in.
gallery.
hate me.
i promise.
jnil.
knil.
listen.
mad.
nobody knows it but me.
one more moment.
pretty boy.
quizzical.
rainbow connection.
stand by me.
tempted to touch.
unfaithful.
vnil.
what hurts the most.
xnil.
you and me.
znil.
though time always have the tendency to slip away,
some things just doesnt fade.
assumptions are bad,ASK.
one of the commons,whats life really all about.
i know its a mortifying topic over and over again. still,the
quest for an answer is unattainable.
these few weeks days were spent hectically and i hardly even
have time to even do a little reflection on what i did throughout
my days,think about the people i just met or even have the
energy to go the extra mile. definitely no time for dickering
as well.
just last night when i feel that my whole life was just like one
big emergency again and getting touchy about it,i just tell myself
that i really gotta stop sweating over the small stuff.
but then again,these days i will only start emoing over one thing;
my baby kikkis health. this morning brought her to the vet and
apart from her initial:
1) left posteriorly luxated lens
2) hernia (her blood cell counts better and operation appointment
next wednesday)
and today?
3) heart problem. (which means her heart is working harder than
before.) other than the daily eye drops every day,for the next seven
days she will have to take pills for her lungs,heart and breathing.
human suffering with major illness and catastrophe. even helpless
animals have to suffer like that.
god,i know life was never fair. but should it go to such an extend?
anyone like this song as well?
fuck you by lily allen.
look inside, look inside your tiny mind
then look a bit harder
cause were so uninspired
so sick and tired of all
the hatred you harbour
so you say
its not okay to be gay
well i think
youre just evil
youre just some racist
who cant tie my laces
your point of view is made devil
fuck you,fuck very very much
cause we hate what you do
and we hate your whole crew
so please dont stay in touch
do you get,do you get
a little kick out of being small minded
you want to be like your father
his approval youre after
well thats not how youll find it
do you,do you really enjoy living a life
thats so hateful cause theres a hole
where your soul should be
youre losing control of it
and its really distasteful
fuck you,fuck you very very much
cause your words dont translate
and its getting quite late
so please dont stay in touch
i enjoy when people start pushing me to corners,thats
when i know guilt doesnt even have to exist.
dont have good stress managment,at all.
my mind is filled with tons of to-dos.
shits dont just happen,because it just keep
happening! ):
everything UPUPUP my neck.
thoughts and plans,extremely organised,NOT.
aiyo,its whirling.
am feeling real pissed inside.
am feeling unsettled.
am feeling darn stress.
am feeling awfully uneasy.
am feeling heavy loads.
von just wanna swallow them down WHOLLY.
hate it whenever i just have to tell someone to
fuck off. god,make them disappear or just bring
them to mecury.
who cares about humanity?
no one taught her that.
i dont care 'what' am i in anys eyes. but then again,
judge me if youre perfect.
the earth is round. YOU watch it coming! fuckers.
be freezed for five full minutes... flipping cool eh. stillness in busy crowd. i like.
was supposed to be home before 1am. but look at the
time now? its nearly 5am?! aiyo,visitor 'fever' is on
its way if i dont catch enough sleep these days,cant
afford to fall sick with so much things in hand.
1100 to 1730. working pretty madly at the field.
1730 to 1840. trying to finish up the paperwork.
1840 to 1920. head town for movie.
1930pm to 2130. (late for movie) so im clueless
throughout the whole show,though,i know it ended
with those 'happily ever after'.
2130 to 2330. mister bean. (i was souless by then!)
2330 to 0000. took train with jiayi because i was
moody (for some reason) and planned to cab home
from ang mo kio.
0000 to 0200. pines country club lounge.
0200 to 0220. zouk.
0220 to 0400. singapore general hospital A&E.
0400 to 0420. home-reallysweet-home.
told jiayi i seriously wanna leave because my mind was
completely blank,and with all those? trust me,by the time
im reached SGH,my eyes wide open already. ):
what a way to start off my short weekend.
great,i should have just used my external harddisk like
all the time instead of saving things directly to my laptop.
good news for now is,my sony vaio is working again!
bad news is,all the files i previously scanned (which i spent
a good few(s) hours) were all gone. because i didnt backup
my files faithfully,prolly had half the documents in external
disk whereas the rest,got lost without me knowing where
did i stopped. so prolly one fine day,i gotta find some time
to sit down and settle those papers. (and those that i gotta
scan,now i looking for hideout for those piles.) )):
by the way,any idea how to password protect the external
harddisk huh???
hardly have time for anything now,its almost like a full time
workaholic already. just got back from work not long. but im
pretty happy these days because work is all good. (:
pictures next time! ((:
oh,before i end off.
remember the madguy i met in office months ago?! darn,hes
in my onceaweek training class for the next 11 weeks! every
time go office already so traumatised. and this morning while
i took a bus to work,guess what? theres this uncle who stood
in front of me,he go 'ha...ha..haha...haha..." THEN,he stand
behind me,he went 'ha...ha..haha...haha..." almost every five
minutes.
this world have gone way madd.
its been so long that i felt like dozing off right
at this time. ):
24hours really not enough,why not 36 hours?
so many things,worth it unworthy,so little time.
earth hour just two days away! be a part in it.
imagine how much impact is it when the world
is participating it for just that hour. now,do the
right thing.
do believe that the world is round. because your
time is halfway here too. and its also because;
what goes up must come down.
nights.
i needa LOVE myself more,
so so so much more than before!
time made me run around like a madd dog.
im feeling absent again. darn.
oh makneinei.
i'll get myself back,soon.
or is it eroding.
its having an online desktop!
my,the worldwideweb have been some dunking
great tool ever,ever developed can.
im still exploring but its definitely something that of
good use for me. because my sony is half gone and i
dont know if i should salvage it. anyway,i randomly
googled for 'online desktop' and tartahh! there it is,
and i wish to share with you guys,do check out
www.desktoptwo.com !
if you guys knew about it,fine then! but,goshs,now
i can live without own laptop but still have access with
all my information,whats not? (((:
initially i was still worrying,bringing an external harddisk
or thumbdrive around,what if i lose them and my clients
personal information are all there. now,ive my solution.
wanted very much to comprehend what the heck been
going through mentally for the past couple of years. truly,
ive been a great escapist,rather,ive been running in the
neverending race.
i dare not say im tired. no more fighter,am. it hasnt been
too hard,right?
one used to hate very much. one used to love tingling.
one that cant resist much. one that stood by in silence.
i wish i could have it in a,split.
incidents to be put under,every little thing that was put
through. they were indeed lessons that she hold close to her
heart. never to allow another to affect or bother her. issues
repeat time and time again,strangely,she wont probe anymore.
probing doesnt change anything,she accepts whatever that
comes along the way. the whys and nots,as time passed,most of
it didnt matter like how it used to. at times she wonder,why
should she. at times she question,would that be. at times she
ponder,it could have been.
time taught her to let it go,if she cant,just pretend it all didnt
happened at all. just live with ignorance because thats where
bliss were blessed. used to break down with the simplest that
came crashing down,not knowing how to find those shelters that
were readily available. perhaps till today,she should just admit
that it still hurt while shes alienating herself. the one with the
trident would be bearing grudges and start pushing blames.
whereas another trying very hard to keep her sane.
the old one missed a lot in life. yet having all,doesnt keep her
sufficient. life taught her too much that she hasnt been able to
absorb. it hasnt been enough to be learnt as well. permitted too
much to slip by. time say move on,she cant resist. recollections
of the former,have done nothing but to estrange her from
realities of the present.
were they a set of associations? any individuality to speak up
for such explicitness. or to find fault with the society because
everybody are programmed to perform the same way,to have
all the nitties gritties going round like some curse from one
individual to another? if only she had screwed up her courage.
have it been done effortlessly?
apparently,im getting unfamiliar with it all. it only inspire to
struggle and sacrifice for better life. let me know if there were
abhorrence.
;i hate this part right here.
till next sojourn.
some of you may have heard of this 'song',(ive heard it donks dont worry about the future;or worry,but know that worrying sing. dont be reckless with other peoples hearts,dont put up with floss. dont waste your time on jealousy;sometimes youre ahead, remember the compliments you receive,forget the insults; keep your old love letters,throw away your old bank stretch. dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with get plenty of calcium. be kind of your knees,you'll miss them when theyre gone. maybe you'll marry,maybe you wont,maybe you'll have dance,even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living read the directions,even if you dont follow them. do not read beauty magazines,they will only make you feel ugly. get to know your parents,you never know when they'll be gone be nice to your siblings;they are the best link to your past and understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few live in new york city once,but leave before it makes you hard; travel. accept certain inalienable truths,prices will rise,politicians will respect your elders. dont expect anyone else to support you. maybe you have a dont mess too much with your hair,or by the time you're 40, be careful whose advice you buy,but,be patient with those who but trust me on sunscreen. (now the favourite part of the song.)
ago but only recently somebody reminded me of it.)
Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) by Baz Luhrmann.
just find the lyrics pretty interesting. erms,okay,hes just
narrating.
ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97,wear sunscreen.
if i could offer you only one tip for the future,sunscreen
would be it. the long term benefits of sunscreen have been
proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no
basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
i will dispense this advice now.
enjoy the power and beauty of your youth;oh nevermind;
you will understand the power and beauty of your youth
until they have faded. but trust me,in 20 years you'll look
back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cant grasp
now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous
you really looked. youre not as fat as you imagine.
is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. the real troubles in your life are apt to be things
that never crossed your worried mind;the kind that blindside
you at 4pm on some idle tuesday.
do one thing everyday that scares you.
people who are reckless with yours.
sometimes youre behind...the race is long,and in the end,
its only with yourself.
if you succeed in doing this,tell me how.
statements.
you life. the most interesting people i know didnt know at
22 what they wanted to do with their lives,some of the most
interesting 40 year olds i know still dont.
children,maybe you wont,maybe you'll divorce at 40,
maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding
anniversary. whatever you do,dont congratulate yourself too
much or berate yourself either - your choices are half chance,
so are everybody elses. enjoy your body,use it every way you
can,dont be afraid of it,or what other people think of it,its the
greatest instrument you'll ever own.
room.
for good.
the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
you should hold on. work hard to bridge the gaps in geography
and lifestyle because the older you get,the more you need the
people you knew when you were young.
live in northern california once,but leave before it makes you soft.
philander,you too will get old,and when you do you'll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable,politicians
were noble and children respected their elders.
trust fund,maybe you have a wealthy spouse;but you never
know when either one might run out.
it will look 85.
supply it. advice is a form of nostalgia,dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal,wiping it off,painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than its worth.
"brother and sister together we'll make it through,someday a
spirit will take you and guide you there. i know that youre hurting
but ive been waiting there for you and i'll be there just helping you
out whenever i can."
i think you guys should be happy for me because von
have been waking up at 7am in the morning,EVERYDAY.
but of course,weekends a bit later,9am. (:
im pretty proud to have cultivated such a good habit these
days.
however,work have been really tiring but im beginning to
enjoy every moment of it. (: looking forward to all my fruits.
i love my colleagues as well,they have been really great.
supposed to be sleeping now because kelly and i just finished
one bottle of redwine together after i finish my work. but after
washing up,darn,im sober already la. ):
anyhoo,party photos of last friday with all my tooties. (x
does he look sober? hahs.
aiyo,so loving.
they are people who make me really happy. ((:
and the ones worth to keep.
theJOKER and theBANGNIAC.
in fact,we were all very tired! still,a get together,i like.
bangbangs! ((:
eugene,is your middle name 'Blessed'?
thats andrew. does he even look sick to you guys HUH?!
with tresy and logan.
and thats malcolm. (:
seriously,these people are what i would really call angels. ((:
okay,done with sharing of my photos. finally im feeling tired. nights.
last friday was out with the girls. and charlenes boyfriend
was almost like a pimp because the whole van was filled
we went to the pub aiwei was working. its been donks since i last met her? (:
okay,i just realised jen and jacilyn not in the picture??
a non-smoking kahki. (:
it was just a couple of years,life have changed us very much.
sorry sarah,but i just had to put this photo up because i put in
some effort to make sure all the poker cards are neatly ornamented
so that this photo can be taken. ((: carrots for you the next time,if
i see you.
((:
finally,im uploading photos to my blog. nothing much to share,
just waiting for people to send me pictures! (:
anyway,the week have been all good so far. work was still okay,
except for days with roadshow that totally shagg me out.
the following are very overdue photos and this post will be kinda
messy because its like almost everything in one post. during chinese
new year,met up with catherine (who came back for that few days?)
and the rest of the girls.
night for the five of us. (:
boozing at alley bar. aiyo,over that table,flooded with gossips. with juliet,
whats not? ((:
jina,i love that 'cheeky-smooch-me-smooch-me' look. hahs. ((: you are
seriously better than/at that.
there were many other silly shots to be uploaded,but too lazy to upload all
of them already.
cat,are you into photos not looking directly at camera? even the next
one, ):
a very very auntie shot. to be squatting somewhere in town like that.
thank god we were at some corner.
okayokay,unSUBconsciously von have got fetish for noses. watch out
for your nose next time. (x
after which,some incomplete party photos.
lifestyleasia.com,sometimes i wonder how popular are online magazines?
somehow i like this photo. (okay kelly,save it,i know what you gonna say next.)
it wasnt exactly planned to party,but,the music were great. havent enjoyed
myself for such a long time.
remember previously i mentioned kikki was supposed to have her hernia
operation done but due to her being diagnosed with low red blood cells,
(higher anaesthetic risks) operation was called off.
was waiting for my friend to pick me up,so,brought kikki to crystals place.
(: kikki was roaming around the place like nobodys business.
that bandage on her arm! they had to draw my poor babys blood for testing.
simply cant resist this doll! (:
she was so tired that she dozed off while we were on the journey home.
and there was this afternoon that i went to find chickykoh for lunch.
this is what i call,strike lottery face. (((:
and lastly,i just had to blog this because my polymates were really
sweeties. all the efforts and thoughts in it. thank you mates! (:
i had to take this because its hellokitty. (ps. me no like pink and hellokitty
by the way) but i just have to tell my friends;
chicken,im even more fortunate to have met you. if not,i wouldnt have
graduated with my diploma. most importantly,thank you for all the
notes printed for me and all the answers! ((:
i wonder if its jiayi or suhana who chose this,it look kinda bimbo.
but i like pretty things like that.
i love handmade cards! im quite a traditionalist too okay! something like
that can make my day.
'eug. you have been a great friend too,our version of theJOKER. (: you have
been a wonderful himbo in my life too. (((:
'bbb. looking forward to our tequila night next week.
'tres. do you know up till now i still dont know whats those chinese characters
you wrote on the card apart from the 'le'? but please tell me in person! (:
'reggay. your swimming part was random. wanna go malaysia again to swim
like the other time?
did i mention i was into over sized clutch? this birthday i have more clutches
than red envelops. (:
thanks for the roses as well. i think its seriously my first time to receive
flowers from friends,i mean,one bouquet of it. (: my tulips over bloomed
even before i managed to take a photo of it,a bit unsightly la,ive chucked it
but,kept this! (:
all in all,thats about it.
the first one to tie the knot is esther among our clique!
the girls seem more excited than the bride-to-be please.
hahs. is this what we call huang shang bu ji tai jian ji?
we have all got our dinner dresses ready la. abbey and kelly
even had their day dress planned as well. i prolly gonna take
some time to find the other one. oh by the way,wedding will
prolly take place this december!
okay,i understand that 23 is not like very very young. but
still,its just a little too soon? i wonder hows esthers feeling
exactly? right now?
to me,marriage is scary. its seriously what they say,love tomb
la. i cant imagine myself facing my husband for the next sixty
years of my life. give birth and start (more of worry) taking
care of kids. sacrificing freedom and privacy?
even though its rather sweet to have someone by your side,
but for life?
im perhaps not a very helpful friend with whatever ive said
above,but still esther,
"Congratulations! You have found your happiness and wish you
a very blissful marriage. Start getting yourself ready while the
big day on its way and enjoy the felicity. No postponing please.
Loves! ((: "
p.s. we will plan a bachelorette party for you! a real pampering
one. spa treatment or male stripper? hahs. ((:
and im quite sure im one of them, are you? (:
theres one thing that i never quite understand.
when we dont have something, we yearn for it almost day and
night. but when we finally get it, pooff! the interest is going-gone.
if we are talking about a living thing, is it prolly some challenge?
i miss this particular friend, i know its pretty nuts to feel this
way. who knows what happened before to have caused that
'little'damage. okay,lets assume that i know but i dont know if that
is so. but then again,who knows what 'chaos' might start if mingling
starts.
do people really grow with time,or just change with time?
both cant go hand in hand,its only one at a time,isnt that so?
plain happiness aint that easy to achieve.
yes,i do yearn for that kind of happiness.
but not those kind happily-living-in-denial;
i would rather be snapped.
perhaps just live in the moment would help.
because being blindly happy bring up ones mood.
at least that works for me,now?
however,von is confusingly happy.
it aint a good sign because i cant confirm if im
truly that happy,it come along with a tinge of pain.
i hate to miss you. (:
thank you all for the greetings and lovings. birthday was spent
rather simple,still,i enjoy it like that. rather than in the past,
party and drink all. thanks for the gifts as well,but i must say
i still love birthday cards. being traditional is good too. (: